I remember not too long ago
With that chipped tooth smile- through the cigarette smoke
I remember not so long ago
The thunder down the hall->wretched coughing choke
The time was there
The signs were there
But you were blind
Declined the help
Denied yourself
Now just a dimming light
Flickering faintly inside
Faltering lucidity
Fault of your ornery
I pulled and you pushed
In this tug of war
You pushed and I pulled
And I shut the door
All I have left is a tattered tapestry of fading memories
Fragmented and fractured, glazed with grief to cover my shame
I remember when it started small
Benign forgetful nature metastasised into more
I remember when you didn't know my name
I remember all the anger all the same
I wish I didn't
I wish you'd listened
We both held on with a tight grip but
I had to let go and watch you slip
How do you live with yourself when you walk away?
The clouds have parted but everything is still so grey
I lie to myself saying I did everything I could
Sometimes I wonder if you even tried
Sometimes I wonder if you even fucking tried
All I have left is a tattered tapestry of broken memories
Fragmented and fractured, glazed with grief to cover my shame
I closed the door and shut you out
I closed the door
Oh how I want that bell to ring again
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