Don't even remember the last time I cried
Was it at a wedding or when somebody died?
Is my nervous system desensitized?
Am I in a crisis or is it just life?
All of the worst case scenarios
Circle my head like a merry-go-round, round, round
So I push it down, down, down
Like when my mom died on New Year's Day
I still show up to parties and celebrate
And I don't know how to do it any other way
'Cause what would I look like without a brave face?
Can't help but feel guilty, blowing out candles
I know it's my birthday, but I almost cancelled
'Cause I got the call, doctor said, "It's a gamble"
But I'll tell my friends that I've got it all handled
Like when dad got sick but I still stayed
Push him through while he's in pain
I don't know how to do it any other way
When I got stood up at twenty-eight
I still show up to every date
I don't know how to do it any other way
'Cause what would I look like without a brave face?
All of the worst case scenarios
Circle my head, but they'd never know
When I say I'm fine, I'm not okay
I'll fake a smile 'til my grave
I don't know how to do it any other way
If I could, I don't know if I would choose to change
'Cause what would I look like without a brave face?
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