I hate that stupid mouse
Everything is so embarrassing still
Critical interior pressure builds
Caught looking through the crack in the door
So bright, so destructive
I want it
Wish I could've figured it out
Before I grew up enough to dodge the question
Wish I could've given it all I had
And crashed and burned or been anything
Better than another name
Fading into radiation
I don't wanna be known, I just wanna be seen
Let me go, drop me, let me be free
I'm falling in between everything dear to me
It never ends
Where the fuck do I belong
And why can I never commit to it?
Is this all there is?
Why can't I need anything
Without it always being forbidden?
I learned to be afraid of myself
Now I'm always on the edge
Always looking in
Stupid fucking puppets haven't you heard?
Whatever you think of me it's worse
I don't have anywhere to turn and I like it
Just wish I could still trust myself
Nobody can ever return
True contact once it occurs
Avoid the eyes and try not to look back
I've complicated so much shit
In my cowardice
When all that I wanted
Was just for someone to see me
But that is not who I am anymore
I can see her behind me
No life in her eyes
I pull my self again to my feet
I cannot ever let go
I'll act my age and fucking fade away
And give up all control
And never show anything
I wish someone would tell me
All my hidden parts will become known
Threat or comfort, I don't care
As long as I can have the hope
That I'm not alone
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